Livin’ a conscious life

Lately i have been experience this overwhelming strength and positive energy in my life. I am aware of most of my thoughts and consciously directing them to the light - i also seem to REALLY not care too much about the ‘’honest opinion of others'’ like i embrace an alternative opinion from mine but it doesn’t make mine any less valid - i have had SO many of these happening lately. The strength just warms my soul each time i experience it esp since am aware, i feel like it’s helping me let go of so much burden that’s been laying on my shoulder for SO long. I am also very in tune with my feelings - good and bad — and am doing as i feel, ha! that’s true liberation and freedom. Seriously. Indifferent to others views/opinions and tapping into my gut feelings and acting according to what i feel because i know it’s come from an authentic part of me and therefore, i will have no regrets. Answers are coming from within, i’ve stopped searching for answers from others - i trust my feelings and let them guide me. I’m really enjoying this journey and it’s been very eye-opening - this experience has made me more open/vocal about my views which has evoked plenty responses/emotions which have shown me where i stand and who i stand with or not. This path am on has proved continuously the power of thoughts - i have been able to attract so many things/people just through my thoughts - seriously, be careful what you think because it might come true - i have focused on a lot of positive things/people i want in my life and they’ve been manifested - i feel like am in the realm, in the zone and i want to bask in it and stay here and even get further in this path. I would love to share my experience/path with others and get them ‘there’ too and also grow together. i believe that will happen. some day. not too long from now.

Light y’all x

Oui, je viens de fini mon cafe! Ahhhh, french. The light grey top am wearing makes me sweat a lot. I put on plenty deo this morning but still, it’s only 10 in the am and i got sweat. ssshhhiiishhh
Mais, lets see what i’ve been up to lately… been ummm busy trying to find the future home of chocolate, ahhh its not been easy. Found the IDEAL location but when it came to signing the contract and paying, the landlord started acting up which REALLy messed us up. Anyway, so he’s supposed to give us a finaly answer today, i pray it works out and whatever the end result, i hope we deal with it the right way.
Work has been very slow lately, been quite unbusy, but dealing with it right. I have been doing some self tutoring on an accounting software, been researching on the BIG business idea for summer next year… so yeah, can’t complain, afterall, everything happens for a reason
I refuse to support ob.am.a because he’s black! i refuse to care about the american elec.tions eventhough it’s rubbed on my face each morning, against my will. I donot care! Nothing.
My family been okay, mum’s still acting her usual self, i refuse to try change her to suit me, instead, am changing my responses to how she acts. I realise that by responding negatively to her, i am no different, so let me different and RISE ABOVE ahhh feels good, i tell ya. Bro’s still being his usual self too, alot of drama with him and he’s behaviour, my higher self tells me that there’s a lesson for us in there… for me it’s probably just a warning of the harms of alcohol and giving me reasons why i should NEVER think of ever touching it again.
Am digging me some ku.ti music…. eiiishh, dat pidgin is heavy, damn! Been watching gray’s too… too deep, lol…. laughter galore. I especially enjoy when they go into the personal lives of the surgeons and how they’re all fucked up, lolll… no fairy tale stories, the way some episodes wind out just kills me, bse its so real… their relationships, their responses, how messed up their minds are. hahahha! Also been reading plenty, right now reading 100 days of sol.itude and it’s wicked…. kinda long but good, once i resume reading its hard to put it down. Its cross generations and the names are very similar so i do get confused but it’s aight… right now am half way and eventhough its hard to put it down, it’s slow, i want to know the point… but i guess probably towards the end… still haven’t gotten the a ha! am searching for.
The hot choc i had the past 2 nights has been really good, never paid attention to hot choc, but am impressed. Can’t wait for the nxt time i go back for more… LOL… am serious!
Just finished talking to my aussie colleague and she’s sweet, very sweet. Talking about the bra project that she thinks i should head here, i think it’s tight, very tight… also she mentioned her friend who visits orphanages once in a while and take food to them and spend time with them, so i told her to put us in touch. I think we need to make regular trips to orphanages and make a small but oh so meaningful (to these kids) trips - think quarterly visits could work, i mean once every 3 months is not so bad. So she’s going to put us in touch with them. Am happy
Health - i need to go the dentists soon, keep planning to ask for an appointment but i never get around to going. I also need to do a full body check up… need to use all the services seeing us we now have a good insurance plan… wohoooo!
I should probs stop here, seeing as, i am minus stories to raconte….
peace out

Finally had the mtg with the boss about my project! He was quite impressed with the implementation plan i developed, in his words “this is excellent” … so yipeee!! Am very happen, we discussed the feasibility of the plan and had a lengthy discussion about it… unfortunately though we didn’t get to finish bse he had a conference call which wasn’t done by the time i left…. so hopefully we finish up soon! Today is friday so probably next week, i should know where i stand with my project..!

Am thrilled at the fact that when u let go of something and just leave things in the hands of the divine, they happen! All week i’d been whining about how we hadn’t met and how it was pissing me off… an all that did was ruin my day and spoil my mood! Then yesterday when i told myself to just chill, it happened! LOL

It’s the 29th of feb, i know 2 people whose birthday is today and basically they only get to celebrate their birthdays every 4 yrs, lol… i don’t know if i fancy that much… but i guess it makes it more special as opposed to the popular annual birthday deal.

Friday is here and i have an upset stomach, thanks to my ever daring self who decided to opt for HOT tikk.a ma.sala!! Indian food is spicy enough and opting for hot indian food = danger-not-be-tried-again! So yeah, am going to be doing a lot of trips to the loo today - guess on the +, i get in some exercise, LOL… pls remember that the loo is about 20 seconds from my office… LOL, if you walk in my pace! So as opposed to sitting down all day… trips to the loo might allow me to get few calories even if they’re micro ones!

I am getting my hair braided this wkd! Yipeee… finally decided to get that done so the natural hair can spring up a bit then i can chop it off… neatly! Alors

I met a friend of his - female last evening and she’s such a brilliant person, u know those women who have an aura of soooo much strength and wisdom, i was amazed and loved having a chat with her… we had a lengthy chat about just about anything esp clever serious stuff, like work, future plans etc… i like that stuff! Not for everyday chat, but definately a combo of such convos and useless chats about hair could do me just alrite!!

Nothing else to report here sir! So ama roll!

Ok, can u just say the past 2/3 posts have been overly exaggerated and totally unnecessary! Gee. Here i was making all funny excuses for my boredom and idle mind… anyhow, i spoke with him yesterday over Linner (that’s an after lunch pre-dinner meal) and basically i was complaining about how my boss still hasn’t met to talk yet and he broke it down to me how am just being impatient and i should appreciate not being overwhelmed with work bse there are time when am truly busy! So yeah we talked alot more about the situation. Am going to take this time to reflect more on what we’ll discuss when we finally meet!
Therefore am now chilled and back to being conscious about my thoughts and thinking-it-happen!
Peace be upon thee all…

Hello bloggie! how goes it? its a lovely morning and i am all sykt for tuesday! I haven’t had much to do this morning, clearly why am bloggin at 9 in the am. Oh well. I have my cup of black chai and my jacket on, so am all warm and ready to face the day.
There’s been some renovations being done in the office and right now, all i can smell is pain! varnish.. that stuff ain’t nice! It’s given me a slight headache… if u may ask, why don’t they just do this in the evenings when everyone’s gone home or on weekends… but oh no, u see just like us, they need to be home at 5PM and on weekends, LOL… this stuff isn’t even hilarious. Right, what to do?

My current state of mind:

I still haven’t spoken with the le boss yet, i am starting to practise patience again! I will relax and it will come to me… no stress, i will embrace no having my hands full all the time, bse i know very well that when work comes, it comes with full force! Donc, ca va!
Okie, i have been saying i need to get back into my exercise routine and i am totally planning to do so ASAP! We get paid this week.. 1st am buying my lil kiddum new school uniform, then a month’s supply of juice for them to take to school and perhaps some notebooks… not sure yet!
Am also planning to start hitting the gym… but then again, since i got a good supply of bi.l.ly b.a.nks - why bother? But i found this gym much closer to my place and it’s quite affordable, so am seriously considering joining it! Also, am going into the health eating lifestyle again, not that i’ve been bad since i have strictly vegetarian lunches when am at work! So i need to learn to not over indulge when am eating out!
Do, i have to go to the airport this evening to pick up a visiting fellow from pfi.zer who i mentioned probly in my previous posts… ofcourse this doesn’t thrill me much, but it’s work dammit! Not that it’s part of my job description, but there’s a damn phrase on my contract that says ‘and any other duties as assigned by your supervisor’ like what kind of shit ass phrase is that… so if am told to go clean a toilet by my boss, i should do?! Ohh man, workers union!! we need one of those to protect workers like us with certain shitty phrases in our contracts… dang!
I finished gei.sha and on to Mock.ing Bi.rd! I hope to read MB at work and the new shiny book mentioned before!
I miss pasting pics to clearly illustrate my state of mind as i post! So let me get.t.y ima.ge this itch up! LOL…
Am seriously thinking about braiding and doings a masters… now that a close friend started hers, am like damn it’s doable… but 1st let’s get the experience on now, shall we! So maybe in a year or 2… i know it shall be done and i will return to school when i absolutely have missed it and have learnt alot and gotten more sensible!
U know what i miss? i miss doughnuts from gr.eggs! I miss as.da ice cream.. i miss a nice cup of hot choc and i miss the feeling of staying at home on a week day and laying in front of the TV (cable) and chillaxin! I miss that itch man! I miss going away on a long weekend, ordering room service, having a long warm bath! Swimming on a sunny afternoon… just being ummmm lazy! LOL… i know! I miss sooo much shit, am thinking maybe i should get away this weekend.. go somewhere fancy and enjoy myself! Btw, he finally called and apologised for being so sillly! Ofcourse i forgave him and now we cool buddies! so yeah, it happens!
Some freakin asshole dude who works at the project we share the office building with just walked in… he’s soooo annoying, he gave some stalker my digits and the dude has been um basically stalking me! Ahhhrggg, bt it’s nothing serious, just that it’s slightly unusual to get a text from someone u dont know… wishing u a nice day, i mean it’s cute but creepy @ the same time.. so yeah, the shithole dude i mentioned is also a perv in my view bse of the way he stares at chics and he thinks he’s smooth and i can almost picture that all his convos are about punan.i! Shit head!
Oh man, that’s too much cursing for nice morning like this, but i care not!
Maybe i should publish this or maybe i should click on another tab, check out shitbook, LOL… aka fc.bk! Hollie… i miss burgers and chips!! seriously i miss a nice plate of freshly made fries and some ketchup and bit of mayo! lalala!
We’ve got alot white folks at work, who if u ask me, do fuck all! Just smile and talk in their loud and cheap accents and are everywhere and try to look busy! Goooseness… wots that all about?! man! I wish i could be in eng.lan.d this very second… so many places i would go to, few people i’d visit! I miss light green grapes! the fresh organic ones rock all! It’s only 10:09, i wonder when lunch break shall arrive… i also wonder if the meeting my boss is attending today shall perhaps delay until 1 PM… ? I wonder too when the next UB is coming out and when i shall ever lay my hands on lip.stic.k jun.gle! I miss Pizza… lawd, do i only talk about food?/! oh man, who cares anyway! it’s my blog hoe! LOL
wow, just what i needed, i just spilt some tea on my top! wowza. Am out of here itch!

Am loving loving loving loving Alici.a Key.s new album ‘’As.I.Am” it soooo beautiful and uplifting. I like it and can’t seem to get enough of it. She’s got talent that girl… honest man, i knew she was good but dayum didn’t think it was this serious… lol, i know i should have paid more attention after she got given a grammy i’m particularly loving SUPER.WOMAN… it’s POWERFUL!! can’t get enough of that song mannn!! yeah anyway she’s good and i’m loving all the charity work she’s involved in, seen her grace alot of campaign covers of late… such a beautiful thing i tell ya!!

Okie, so i am coughing not good but i am taking medication and it really could be worse

We got a small drinking water tank thingy at work so since it came i’d always go for warm water but it’d be cold, so this morning i discovered why! basically no one ever bothered to turn the hot water on…so i did and right now i am on my 2 nd 1Ltr bottle of warm water it’s nice!

Can i just say it’s such a beautiful thing being in love…

esp with someone as fab as him…

the other day, i was giving him alot of att bse that little episode with ugly detty and yeah, so we sorted things out but still i had that taste in the back of my mouth and wasn’t 100% me i.e. i’d pick on EVRYTHING he did … so sato as we were heading home, he stopped me and went, “sweetie, i just want us to be friends… just be cool and not pick on everything… we both know how we feel and you know i love you so much” … so those words almost automatically got me and i had a mini a.ha moment right there… and we’ve been all head-over-heels again… yesterday he called to say he missed me… this morning he replied to my email almost the same second as i hit ’send’ lol… i know it’s small things but those are the things that say sooo much and go such a long way… we’re meeting up this evening for coffee i think… and i cannot wait

After work yesterday i headed straight home - as usual, changed into pjs, grabbed some potato salad from the night b4 and went to the living room. Everyone was home… so we vibed and vibed and then watched my sis gusa.ba tape and then…. power went! Yay…. Africa!!
Yahh, so we went on vibing….i told them stories, people were cracking up and on the floor… it was nice family time, i miss evenings like those. Usually, i get home and spend like 10 mins with the fam then head to my room… so it was nice having something diff for a change! making my mum, my sis and bro crack up and almost roll on the floor bse of laughter… beautiful thing!

I just got back from having lunch, has some cassava frites, spinach cooked in peanut sauce and some fish bits…. it was delicious. I am not sure what kind of a diet i am on now, seeing as i got sick of beans and veggies and chilli… so now am having alot of veggies and some carbs! i know, i know… but hell whatever! I am cool with it… maintaining my 2 Ltrs of water/day… trying to make it 3Ltrs a day… i mean when am at work, it’s possible bse my office is kinda’ close to the loo.

Mood: i am in a good and happy mood today, mainly bse of how things are going soooo well with my boo, lastnite family time, all the work i got done this morning and how much more i am going to do this afternoon - have decided to being a little tiny bit of a workaholic… bse i have such limited supervision at the office, so some days i can literally choose to NOT work and just fcbk, browse blogs, fool around and look busy when the boss is entering…. so i am looking to alter my ways and work, work….

On my mind: am looking to develop some sort of scope of work of things i’d like to work in for when the admin asst is recruited… areas i’d like to get more involved in alongside M&E … talking of which, i totally cannot wait for that admin asst to start… i get to do some serious and challenging ish at the office

I am missing some straw.berry cheese/cake man and a ceasar salad! LOL… i know i just had lunch but i wouldn’t say no to some s/berry cheese.cake man!

LOLL… ok, got nothing else to say for now… until next time…. ohhh yes, i do realise i still haven’t posted much on S.A but i promise to do so b4 a week’s time reaches.

Peace

Oh lawd, it feels gooooooooooooood!!! I just got a mini go-ahead for a project i have been working on… basically i was asked to draft an M&E plan for the project since if u recall, i spoke to my boss about it and was sort of put in charge of it! So yeah all week i have been trying to put together a plan/framework of hows its gonna go down M&E wise… yeah, so i submitted it to a colleague - the coordinator and he loved it! he said it made sense and made few suggestions! Et c’est tout! Basically, if feels good that it makes perfect sense i.e. i am in the right lane and things r looking up man! I am sooooo thrilled. I am ready to conquer the world so watch out world! LOL i know i am a bit lame but hey, its my blog and my right to say whatsoever i want!!
I feel so attached to this M&E thing that i am happy at the slightest thing basically i want to do it sooo bad and do it soooo well hence my excitement…!! Next steps are to sort of modify the framework etc and then submit it to my boss to have a final say on it… lalallalallalalalalalala.
Okie, ofcourse am also happy bse its friday meaning no work for the next 2 days… ima be my own boss etc etc… super cool, innit?!
I am planning to keep thinking about the framework but am totally not planning to actually get on my comp and do work… nah, ain’t happening. About my weekend, i am going for an interesting group therapy thing on women and colours LOL… am serious! random i know, but something about improving your look or something, personally i think its unusualness is going to be super interesting and possibly a good laugh too! Donc, i shall be very much there with my girlfriends… after we might go swimming seeing as i went swimming yesterday after like 2 years and have fallen in love with the sport all over again and wanted to even go today but yeah just couldnt happen… anyhow…. yeah so after that, we’ll probly do dinner or something, then maybe hang around a bit then go home. I am looking to rent some movies and stay indoors in my pjs and relax! I need that… especially seeing as i am feeling a bit content with work and my baby - M&E donc c’est tres perfet! Infact je trouve que c’est tellement magnifique!
Ah la la…

Nice weekend to everyone in the entire world except those in the north pole, its probably Monday already! So for all you north polers, i say nice days!

*Mwa*

It’s here… the time i have been waiting for… been praying for… the work is here now it’s my time to perform and prove myself to me, that i can grow! I am not going to settle where i am… i am well equipped and if i put in some hard work, i will do it! It’s in me… the strength, the ideas, the creativity… it’s all here now i have to just DO!

And yes indeed i am doing this…. because i am living to do and feel good….

Fucking hell… so following my previous post it is obvious i am still in a bitchy mood… i don’t get it? What is up with ppo today, i know i attracting this bullcrap, but i disagree that it’s only me causing this… almost everyone in the office is being a fucking asshole… what the hell is wrong with these people???? Ok, so this fucking asshole asked me to scan a doc for him since i was using the scanner already i was like cool… then i finished and saved it on his comp… i didn’t get a thank u which is fine with me - but oh no, did he stop there?? nope. He comes back like after an hour and goes ‘u didn’t scan the docs, did u?’ am thinking in my head, muthafucker is i agreed to do then why would i not have done it? Then i go ALL the way to this little sucker’s office and to show the doc to him, i show him and he goess ahhhh didn’t realise it was here… ofcourse u didn’t u retarded fucker. Again there was no thank you. The the doc opens and u will not believe this dude, he goes, ohhh why is it upside down??!! I just fucking ignored what he said and walked back to my desk… i can’t fucking deal with people like him… he’s being a pain and since i am already in a mood for fuckin sulking… i shall speak my mind and maybe feel horrible re-reading this post… but i don’t care… its how i feel at the moment and i am going to say whats on my mind. Bullshit ignorant asshole… with horrible people skills… the heck?
Grrrhhhh…
Oh gosh, its sad i feel this way esp since its fuckin friday, usually i’d be in the best of moods… but nope i am not. I am just down, down… and fucking hating being under.
It’s only 3:18PM…. i could have sworn it’s been 3 o’clock for 3 hrs now…. wtf? AHAhhrhrgggggg
YUK…i hate being so negative… i hate having to curse at people and being over ego-full… but fuck it…. its my day to just be mad! I know i will not gain anything form this but fear, more anger and hate… but dammit, let me.

Dammit, i am down this morning, i know its in my head and i can choose to feel good and happy, but somehow today i feel like i shouldn’t try and turn things around yet deep down i am not my happiest… it’s just small things at the office, i feel like i really need to get serious about starting up my own thing, i should focus on react and just do my own thing man… i am fed up with working for people, i know it has only been a year or so but still man, i can’t do this… people just mistreating and silently hating on me because 1 - i am young… only 22 and i get a good salary 2 - i am a woman surrounded by a majority of fuckin chauvinist assholes who don’t want to let me fit in… they want to do everything and be seen as workaholics who know what they’re doing. I am just fucking mad man… i hate this shit… i really think i wouldn’t be here this long if i didn’t have a boss like the one i have… i mean he really is the greatest boss ever… he really makes me want to put 200% into what i do, he motivates me, he gives me tasks that are of my level - being a uni graduate, he really inspires me alot. Grrrhhhh… i feel bad for being this angry, i should be more in control of my emotions and not be acting up like this after all the PD work i have been today - but am sorry today i am taking break, i will control my emotions tomorrow - thank you.
I need to fucking get serious about setting up my own business, i mean i could start with the mini project right now and still continue working here - because i cannot afford to miss out on that good money hitting my bank account end of each month - at least not yet. Really what’s holding me back? i ask myself - yes i know i need to get experience and do some intellectual work - maybe if i start my BIG project i will get more experience and more exposure - today, i just feel fucking exploited and freaking unappreciated by my colleagues - i mean, i why the sudden change? or is it me who’s changing? i don’t get it, but i see a bit of hate in their eyes when we speak and alot of disrespect for me too.. i can’t fucking do this crap for much longer! I need a fuckin break man. Grrrhhh. WTF?
Am i really asking for so much so soon? What is the problem… i need to practise patience i know and good things come to those who wait but dammit, i need to speak out today - atleast on this darn blog, i need to let out how the fuck am feeling.
I know i am not just mad my work - i agree that i did go to bed with a bit of baggage which isn’t right because that shit stayed on my mind all fucking morning - yes i am not as mad i was last nite - bse i realise that i might just be looking too much into the incident but dammit i donot appreciate the who situation! Give me a fucking break… why does anyone’s partner agree to meet up with a bitch who clearly is head over heels in love with him to freakin discuss a project - yes she got him to agree because it is on a topic he is very passionate about - but hwy the heck does a meeting that started at 8PM end at 1:30 AM???? Especially when it involves that particular bitch!! I am angry man, i fucking am. This is some serious bullcrap. I hate it hate it.
Yes it is friday and i should be doing my work, minding my own business and waiting for the clock to strike 5 so i head home for a good 64HOURS of being my own boss and doing what i please with my time.
Ohh man, i feel bad i have to be this angry… but today, let me just be! FUCK.

I think i might have found it…

It being…

My call…

Ur what? u might wonder….

Drum rolls….

My call in life…

LOL…

Ok maybe that’s a bit too dramatic, but yeah, i feel like i found it y’all… so basically the deal is that i have been thinking a lot about my job and about what i want to do ultimately i.e. trying to get a good idea about what i eventually want to do - what i see myself doing 6 yrs down the road etc… so my point was to know what that is and then start working towards it right now, i.e. decide what experience i’d require that would compliment and be of much use to my ultimate plan!
So it has indeed been a difficult think to try figure out, because it’s like what i’d always thought i’d do in the future back when i was at uni started sounding unappealing to me.. so i was getting confused and basically not sure about things… so this has sort of been the ‘’story of my life'’ for the past few weeks… it hasn’t been fun that i can assure you!
Anyway, so this monday i had a chat with my boss and he was asking me how work is going so far and what am interested in doing… so i told him i wanted to get experience in monitoring and evaluation bse i feel its broad and a very interesting subject! he was thrilled at the idea and told me kabisa that’s good because we’re going to start doing alot of it for both our programs… so yeah the past few days i have been doing some self tutoring on it and am absolutely loving it!! I am enjoying it and i can say indeed it looks like my thing, i have found it… i could do it almost with any institution be in gov’t, NGO, private sector u name it… so am honestly going to put my heart and soul into it and excel in it… am thankful to have been given such a option and am going to really make the most out of it…

So that ladies and gentlemen is my IT.

Ciao!

I have been hearing and reading a lot about the laws of attraction or in wayne dyer’s words ‘manifestation’ basically meaning that we should focus our thoughts on what WE want i.e. donot spend all day thinking about how bad things are because that’s what you shall continuously receive. He says ‘As you think, so shall you be’ and basically that the currency of what you want in the material world = Money and the currency of what you want in the metaphysical world = thoughts. Simple as that.
This is the same thing that is being said in the very hyped book, the secret… it’s all about using your thoughts to attract what you want i.e. be careful what you choose to focus your thoughts on because those are what you will manifest.

As you may notice in my post yesterday, i was talking about how sad i was and i have constantly had the feeling that something bad might be happen to me at work… and silly enough i have been focusing on that.

But today,

I choose differently, i choose to create work even when i am not given, i believe that the divine will somehow find a way of getting my feelings about wanting more responsibility at work out there and it will come to …

I will have to just stay focused, shift my thoughts to that phase of when i have gotten all the responsibility when i am truly happy that i am contributing significantly to my job.

That is going to be my manifestation… i shall not turn this into something sad, i will create and create it until it materialises…

Yipeee…. i am ecstatic! I really am.

I am doing this!

Its tuesday morning 8:13am to be precise, my boss has just gone out of the office…meaning i can blog, lol…anyway we’ve advertised a number of jobs this past week so applications have been flowing in…it just sort of hit me how many people are looking for work, people with crazy ass experience, some serious qualifications and yet they’re job hunting, it’s mad, and then some of us have the nerve to sort of complain about work…i mean, am not really one of those to complain all day about how work sucks, bse trust me i’ve been through WORSE! Where i work at the mo is really good, the environment is lovely, my colleagues are great and do not poke their noses into everyone’s business…which works just fine for me, the pay is really good, the benefits are wonderful! Honestly, it’s a great job and also the work am doing is very related to what i want to do for my masters degree, which is an MA in Project Management… so am basically getting some quality experience! My boss is very hard working which sort of makes me have to put in every single effort in what i do, because nothing can pass him without noticing an error, he’s got a very good memory basically never forgets things he’s assigned, i am honestly getting very good experience. Though, i know that i am not putting 100% into my work, probly say right now am putting in 70%…so i need to work my butt off and not complain when am asked to come in a saturday or public holiday, it’s work… my parents have been doing this for ages and i never heard them complain, they worked their butts to make us a happy family…and yet, am only living for ‘me’ as in no fees to pay, nothing to do with anyone else, except the random electricity bill i pay once in a while, food for the house and little things i do ocassionally…my point being that i donot really have to bear with stuff for the sake of my family etc… anyway, i just want to say i am very happy with my job, i am so grateful to God for the way i got this job without even looking for it, as in it found me, i just got an offer and took it up! LOL…but really, this morning i want to just take a deep breath and reflect on all the positive things of my job, i am grateful, i am very happy with the work i do. I am thankful to God!

I got a day off on tuesday!! Yeeeehaaaahhh!! issue is that am travelling out of town, to do my test, which i am honestly dreding seeing as i have dodged class for a long time! Hmmmppphhh…i am scared…lakini it would be off the hook if i got it…pray for me. Besides that, am looking to go to the gym sometime before the week ends…i pray i make it, bse honestly am so not in shape! It’s FRIDAY….sooooo looking forward to TV tonite…can stay up all night watching cable…how keeewl!!! Soooo looking forward to that….yeeehaaahhh!! Also, i need to go grocery shopping…like seriously, i ran out of fruit early this week…no legumes, nothing! And am supposedly on a healthy eating diet….can u imagine that???!! looking forward to 6:30 ish when am done with work and classes….how wonderful!