Livin’ a conscious life

This blog is therapy, honestly. I donot realise it sometimes when i write but it really helps me whenever am in doubt/worry/fear… it gives me direction, it reminds me of things that are most important and reminds me to focus on them and just them. What i need to do is to make sure that i stop blogging about random/everyday things that aren’t positive. Yes, i can identify a prob when there’s one but as long as its not healing and just complaining, i should not blog about it.
Right, so the mind, i know, its so powerful, it really is.
So, this morning right, i am all ugh and stuff, focusing on fearful thoughts and it really does a damper on my mood and almost messes me up. I have noticed this happens when i start worrying, when i worry about little silly things. Then i get caught up in a tangled web of negativity and nonconstructive thinking, ugh! Anyway, so up until a coupla’ months ago… i never really understood how love, just love, when applied to almost any situation in life…. at work, family, just about anything really soothes things and makes things better! I read somewhere that just repeating the words love, love, love, whenever in doubt can be really good therapy. So am practising that As much of a cliche as this may sound, love really is everything so that’s my new mantra. I will guide all my thoughts to loving ones and when i am getting derailed by my mind, i’ll go back to love and i know because of the energy that comes with love, it’ll stick! before u know i’ll be all love and stuff. i love that.

You are wonderful, you are beautiful, you are soulful and you have a pure heart… you doubt youself sometimes, but you have no reason to bse you are smart and you know very well what your purpose in life is i.e. love! you battle so much when tough times come and need to realise that the truth lies inside you, as much of a cliche as this sounds but it’s true… you have all your answers always become silent when the world is on full speed… stay silent, close your eyes, take deep breaths in and listen to you - you meaning, your true essense i.e. your heart… ignore your ego which only cares about your self importance which is so irrelevant. Always cold your head and listen to your heart, you’ll never go wrong. I am amazed at how spiritual you get each day, you eagerness for peace of mind, for a purpose, for not settling for less than what’ll trully satisfy you, for wanting to always go the extra mile to grow you mind and soul… i tell you something self, you are not wrong in rejecting peer pressure, you are very right in doing whatever feels good in your soul even if it’s just staying home on a saturday night to lay fresh sheets on your bed, or listen to some india or meditate.. thats your joy, you define fun, you redefine cool and so worry not about the external pressures you might face… just stay yourself, do you! I love you sooooo much and i know right now as i write that you are on the right path, the path that’ll gain you clarity, love, compassion, truth, end of suffering and peace! So go ahead and never doubt yourself, never judge the things that happen to you, always remember you are response-able and if you respond positively, you get closer to the light, which is ultimately peace. Follow you dreams, let love always guide you, listen and strain your ears to listen to that small silent whisper whenever you are faced with a tough choice. Fix yourself, fix your relationship with your family bse that just shows you have alot of healing to do… bse when we’re with family, we are 100% ourselves… so quit being good to the world and not good to your own kin, that means you’re only half way through your journey towards peace, beautiful and enlightenment. I wish you silence, i wish you love, i wish you always listen to your essense for you’ll never go wrong.
I love you, self, i do and i know you’re exceptional and will change the world, by being the change agent i.e. being the change you wanna see.

Peace, clarity, light, silence, calm, healthfulness, purity, water, calm breaths, stillness…

Wonderful man you are dear Uncle. I refuse to speak of you in past tense because i know you are here and very much alive, just not physically. I was almost born in your home, lol and you never stopped telling me that. Then you gave me a local name that meant “princess” you were easy going and had a life of your own, you refused to conform to societal expectations and did you own thing. Your deep intelligence, your refusal to tolerate mediocrity in any form or shape - true intellect you are. May your soul rest in peace. Yesterday at your funeral service, all people talked about was your hard work and dedication to lecturing the children of this nation. you were a proud university professor, passionate about what you did and worked relentlessly towards educating our people. You fought for what you felt was going to be build our country and develop it.

Beautiful soul, you have - Dear uncle. I remember looking forward to holidays because most of them we’d spend at yours, though it was a very long ride to get to yours, about 9 hours i think, by road… but i felt nothing during those trips because i knew i’d get to see you and you would spoil me and my siblings rotten. Chocolates, biscuits you name, you’d bring those home almost every evening. Your laughter really reflected your soul, lol, i can almost hear it, that loud laugh that is let out in little breaks, and you’d be trying to talk at the same time and then of course if it was a really good laugh you’d have tears rolling down your eyes. I can picture it now, lol, you sat on your couch in your living room or sat at the Olympiad bar, lol… awww

One of the few people i’d always be sure to write to whenever someone was traveling to your town… and you would always reply, don’t recall the contents very thoroughly but i know you would always encourage me to study hard at school and tell me the importance of school. I remember the letters would be written in black with a nice and fancy fountain pen… true intellect i tell you i remember your signature at the end of each letter, you signed your full name, always, which was rare for our people, since they all prefer fancy signatures that have little of no connection to their names, lol… including me, though mine does have my names in it, but in a rather discreet fashion.

True patriot - you are dear Uncle: And then talks about our beautiful home, you would always tell us how we have a beautiful nation was and how beautiful its people are and you would go and on about home. Of course us having been born in a foreign land, and being so young i felt little for my home because i knew little about it, i had never been. When we did return home in 96, with you and my family in the same flight all the way home… the joy you felt/showed was indescribable… you felt at home, you were proud to be here, very excited to speak our mother tongue and just be in the presence of your people, our people…
Your love for your country was manifested in the work you did, training young people to having a better future, to work hard, to never settle for anything less than the best, ofcourse some students didn’t like your rather forward nature with them, but you only did that because you truly cared and felt the only way they would learn best was by you being strict on them

You honesty, Uncle, lol… made you a truly unique being! You spoke you mind even at times when others would not due to fear or out of common politeness, you said what you felt and stood by it, am sure i witnessed a couple of people getting offended by your words, but you told what you felt and never held back, a quality that very few have and i truly admire in you. You never thought of the consequences of your words because you knew the very old cliche oh-so well “the truth shall set you free” and free you are today, in the presence of all those who your loved and laughing, lol, that laugh

I am sorry i never made an effort to get to know you better once we returned home, school, growing up, working and just dealing with daily life’s issues could be excuses i could come up with but that would not be the whole truth. Effort was what i lacked, i made no effort to visit you, or call you atleast once, even when you fell ill, (God forgive me, please) i didn’t visit and i ask for you apologies. I am truly sorry and i know my lesson is somewhere in this experience and i am all open hands to receive it. Please forgive me. I am very sorry.

You are my hero, uncle, you really are. I take with me you love for books, your love for intellectual growth, your honesty, your love for helping others, your love for education, your being selfless, your big heart and your love for children

May your soul rest in eternal peace and you will always have a VERY special place in my heart. I know i will see you one day but for now, you are here, i know - just not physically!

I LOVE YOU, UNCLE!

JUST READ THIS SOMEWHERE…

Evaluating Our Relationships

There comes a time in all our lives when we may need to evaluate our relationships, making sure that they are having a positive effect on us, rather than dragging us down. Without realizing it, we may be spending precious time and energy engaging in friendships that let us down, rather than cultivating ones that support and nourish us along our path. Life, with its many twists, turns, and challenges, is difficult enough without us entertaining people in our inner circle who drain our energy. We can do so much more in this world when we are surrounded by people who understand what we’re trying to do and who positively support our efforts to walk our path.

We can begin this evaluation process by simply noticing how we feel in the context of each one of our close relationships. We may begin to see that an old friend is still carrying negative attitudes or ideas that we ourselves need to let go of in order to move forward. Or we may find that we have a long-term relationship with someone who has a habit of letting us down, or not showing up for us when we need support. There are many ways to go about changing the status quo in situations like this, having a heart to heart with our friend showing through example. This process isn’t so much about abandoning old friends as it is about shifting our relationships so that they support us on our journey rather than holding us back.

An important part of this process is looking at ourselves and noticing what kind of friend we are to the people in our lives. We might find that as we adjust our own approach to a relationship, challenging ourselves to be more supportive and positive, our friends make adjustments as well and the whole world benefits.

I am happy today, mostly because of love. Just love. I feel love is the secret to living happily and by that i don’t mean romantic love, i mean simply loving. Just love. Love gives you peace of mind, it stops you from doubting yourself, it makes you understand the universe you live in because when you love, your heart rules and not your mind. Being able to consult you heart rather than your mind will always lead you to the right way even though it might seem illogical to others if you know that this is from your heart then you can’t go wrong. You get messages from your heart through intuitions, a yes feeling, hunches - when you listen to those, u can not possibly go wrong. Listening to your heart makes you understand things in a much different way than you’d do with your mind, only when you listen to your heart do you feel love.

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of
creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew.
Seek, therefore, not to find out Who You Are, seek to determine
Who You Want to Be.
Your job on Earth, therefore, is not to learn (because you already know),
but to remember Who You Are. And to remember who everyone else is.

Judge not, then, the karmic path walked by another. Envy not success,
nor pity failure, for you know not what is success or failure
in the soul’s reckoning. Judge not, and neither
condemn, for you know not why a thing occurs,
nor to what end. And remember
you this: that which you condemn will condemn you,
and that which you judge, you will one day become. Rather, seek to change
those things—or support others who are changing those things—
which no longer reflect your highest sense of Who You Are.

There is perfection in the process—and all life arises out of choice.

Your own life is the way it is because of you,
and the choices you have made—or failed to make.

All that is required is to know this. For you are the creator of your reality,
and life can show up no other way for you than that way in which you think it will.
Thought is pure energy. Every thought you have, have ever had,
and ever will have is creative. The energy of your thought never ever dies.
Ever.
It leaves your being and heads out into the universe,
extending forever. A thought is forever.

The Laws are very simple. 1. Thought is creative. 2. Fear attracts like energy.
3. Love is all there is.

So—do you want your life to “take off”?
Begin at once to imagine it the way you want it to be—
and move into that.

Check every thought, word, and action that does not fall into harmony with that.
Move away from those.

The most difficult thing for people to do is hear their own soul.

And every Master has likewise had the same message: What I am, you are.
What I can do, you can do. These things, and more, shall you also do.

All attack is a call for help.

Life is a creation, not a discovery.

Enlightenment is understanding that there is nowhere to go, nothing to do, and
nobody you have to be except exactly who you’re being right now.
Remember, you are constantly in the act of creating yourself.
You are in every moment deciding who and what you are.
You decide this largely through the choices you make regarding who and
what you feel passionate about.
Yet never resist anything. If you think that by your resistance
you will eliminate it, think again. You only plant it more firmly in place.
All thought is creative?

There is only now; an eternal moment of always in which you are experiencing yourself.

The point of life is therefore to create—who and what you are, and then to experience that.
This is the process of Self realization about which Eastern mystics have written.
It is the process of salvation to which much Western theology has devoted itself.
Yet the purpose of relationship is not to have another who might complete you; but to have another with whom you might share your completeness.

A Master blesses calamity, for the Master knows that from the seeds of disaster
(and all experience) comes the growth of Self.

What you do for your Self, you do for another. What you do for another,
you do for the Self.
This is because you and the other are one.

So much of your present experience is based on your previous thought.
New thought is your only chance. It’s your only real opportunity to evolve,
to grow, to truly become
Who You Really Are.

True Masters are those who have chosen to make a life, rather than a living.

To change your reality, simply stop thinking like that.
Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time.
How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don’t like to do?
What kind of a living is that?
That is not a living, that is a dying!

Worry is just about the worst form of mental activity there is—
next to hate, which is deeply self destructive.
Worry is pointless. It is wasted mental energy.
It also creates bio-chemical reactions which harm the body,
producing everything from indigestion to coronary arrest,
and a multitude of things in between.

Worry, hate, fear—together with their offshoots: anxiety, bitterness, impatience,
avarice, unkindness, judgmentalness, and condemnation—all attack the body at the
cellular level. It is impossible to have a healthy body under these conditions.

The world is in the condition that it’s in because the world is full of sleepwalkers.

Finally had the mtg with the boss about my project! He was quite impressed with the implementation plan i developed, in his words “this is excellent” … so yipeee!! Am very happen, we discussed the feasibility of the plan and had a lengthy discussion about it… unfortunately though we didn’t get to finish bse he had a conference call which wasn’t done by the time i left…. so hopefully we finish up soon! Today is friday so probably next week, i should know where i stand with my project..!

Am thrilled at the fact that when u let go of something and just leave things in the hands of the divine, they happen! All week i’d been whining about how we hadn’t met and how it was pissing me off… an all that did was ruin my day and spoil my mood! Then yesterday when i told myself to just chill, it happened! LOL

It’s the 29th of feb, i know 2 people whose birthday is today and basically they only get to celebrate their birthdays every 4 yrs, lol… i don’t know if i fancy that much… but i guess it makes it more special as opposed to the popular annual birthday deal.

Friday is here and i have an upset stomach, thanks to my ever daring self who decided to opt for HOT tikk.a ma.sala!! Indian food is spicy enough and opting for hot indian food = danger-not-be-tried-again! So yeah, am going to be doing a lot of trips to the loo today - guess on the +, i get in some exercise, LOL… pls remember that the loo is about 20 seconds from my office… LOL, if you walk in my pace! So as opposed to sitting down all day… trips to the loo might allow me to get few calories even if they’re micro ones!

I am getting my hair braided this wkd! Yipeee… finally decided to get that done so the natural hair can spring up a bit then i can chop it off… neatly! Alors

I met a friend of his - female last evening and she’s such a brilliant person, u know those women who have an aura of soooo much strength and wisdom, i was amazed and loved having a chat with her… we had a lengthy chat about just about anything esp clever serious stuff, like work, future plans etc… i like that stuff! Not for everyday chat, but definately a combo of such convos and useless chats about hair could do me just alrite!!

Nothing else to report here sir! So ama roll!

1.We all work with one infinite power

2. The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA)

3. Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting

4. We are like magnets - like attract like. You become AND attract what you think

5. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy

6. People think about what they don’t want and attract more of the same

7. Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation

8. You attract your dominant thoughts

9. Those who speak most of illness have illness, those who speak most of prosperity have it..etc..

10. It’s not “wishful” thinking.

11. You can’t have a universe without the mind entering into it

12. Choose your thoughts carefully .. you are a masterpiece of your life

13. It’s OK that thoughts don’t manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon)

14. EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact .. it’s true.

15. Your thoughts cause your feelings

16. We don’t need to complicate all the “reasons” behind our emotions. It’s much simpler than that. Two categories .. good feelings, bad feelings.

17. Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track. Thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track.

18. Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming

19. You get exactly what you are FEELING

20. Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances

21. You can begin feeling whatever you want (even if it’s not there).. the universe will correspond to the nature of your song

22. What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience

23. What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception

24. Shift your awareness

25. “You create your own universe as you go along” Winston Churchill

26. It’s important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) )

27. You can change your emotion immediately .. by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience

28. When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator

29. Life can and should be phenomenal .. and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction

30. Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly

31. Start by using this sentence for all of your wants: “I’m so happy and grateful now that…. ”

32. You don’t need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself

33. LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW

34. You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you want faster

35. The universe likes SPEED. Don’t delay, don’t second-guess, don’t doubt..

36. When the opportunity or impulse is there .. ACT

37. You will attract everything you require - money, people, connections.. PAY ATTENTION to what’s being set in front of you

38. You can start with nothing .. and out of nothing or no way - a WAY will be provided.

39. HOW LONG??? No rules on time .. the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen

40. Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that’s what you wish) We make the rules on size and time

41. No rules according to the universe .. you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond

42. Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing (bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck…etc..)

43. You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point

44. “All that we are is a result of what we have thought” - Buddha

45. What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude

46. Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately

47. What we think about and THANK about is what we bring about

48. What are the things you are grateful for?? Feel the gratitude.. focus on what you have right now that you are grateful for

49. Play the picture in your mind - focus on the end result

50. VISUALIZE!!! Rehearse your future

51. VISUALIZE!!! See it, feel it! This is where action begins

52. Feel the joy .. feel the happiness )

53. An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one

54. “What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists.” Alexander Graham Bell

55. Our job is not to worry about the “How”. The “How” will show up out of the commitment and belief in the “what”

56. The Hows are the domain of the universe. It always knows the quickest, fastest, most harmonious way between you and your dream

57. If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered .. this is where magic and miracles happen

58. Turn it over to the universe daily.. but it should never be a chore.

59. Feel exhilarated by the whole process .. high, happy, in tune

60. The only difference between people who are really living this way is they have habituated ways of being.

61. They remember to do it all the time

62. Create a Vision Board .. pictures of what you want to attract .. every day look at it and get into the feeling state of already having acquired these wants

63. “Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.” Albert Einstein

64. Decide what you want .. believe you can have it, believe you deserve it, believe it’s possible for you

65. Close your eyes and visualize having what you already want - and the feeling of having it already.

66. Focus on being grateful for what you have already .. enjoy it!! Then release into the universe. The universe will manifest it.

67. “Whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve” W. Clement Stone

68. Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind.

69. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it.

70. How can you become more prosperous?? INTEND IT!!

71. ‘Checks are coming in the mail regularly’… or change your bank statement to whatever balance you want in there… and get behind the feeling of having it.

72. Life is meant to be abundant in ALL areas…

73. Go for the sense of inner joy and peace then all outside things appear

74. We are the creators of our universe

75. Relationships: Treat yourself the way you want to be treated by others .. love yourself and you will be loved

76. Healthy respect for yourself

77. For those you work with or interact with regularly .. get a notebook and write down positive aspects of each of those people.

78. Write down the things you like most about them (don’t expect change from them). Law of attraction will not put you in the same space together if you frequencies don’t match

79. When you realize your potential to feel good, you will ask no one to be different in order for you to feel good.

80. You will free yourself from the cumbersome impossibilities of needing to control the world, your friends, your mate, your children….

81. You are the only one that creates your reality

82. No one else can think or feel for you .. its YOU .. ONLY YOU.

83. Health: thank the universe for your own healing. Laugh, stress free happiness will keep you healthy.

84. Immune system will heal itself

85. Parts of our bodies are replace every day, every week..etc… Within a few years we have a brand new body

86. See yourself living in a new body. Hopeful = recovery. Happy = happier biochemistry. Stress degrades the bod.

87. Remove stress from the body and the body regenerates itself. You can heal yourself

88. Learn to become still .. and take your attention away from what you don’t want, and place your attention on what you wish to experience

89. When the voice and vision on the inside become more profound and clear than the opinions on the outside, then you have mastered your life

90. You are not here to try to get the world to be just as you want it. You are here to create the world around you that you choose.

91. And allow the world as others choose to see it, exist as well

92. People think that if everyone knows the power of the LOA there won’t be enough to go around .. This is a lie that’s been ingrained in us and makes so many greedy.

93. The truth is there is more than enough love, creative ideas, power, joy, happiness to go around.

94. All of this abundance begins to shine through a mind that is aware of it’s own infinite nature. There’s enough for everyone. See it. Believe it. it will show up for you.

95. So let the variety of your reality thrill you as you choose all the things you want.. get behind the good feelings of all your wants.

96. Write your script. When you see things you don’t want, don’t think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don’t wants… remove your attention from don’t wants.. and place them on do wants

97. We are mass energy. Everything is energy. EVERYTHING.

98. Don’t define yourself by your body .. it’s the infinite being that’s connected to everything in the universe.

99. One energy field. Our bodies have distracted us from our energy. We are the infinite field of unfolding possibilities. The creative force.

100. Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not - NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right were you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.

I have been hearing and reading a lot about the laws of attraction or in wayne dyer’s words ‘manifestation’ basically meaning that we should focus our thoughts on what WE want i.e. donot spend all day thinking about how bad things are because that’s what you shall continuously receive. He says ‘As you think, so shall you be’ and basically that the currency of what you want in the material world = Money and the currency of what you want in the metaphysical world = thoughts. Simple as that.
This is the same thing that is being said in the very hyped book, the secret… it’s all about using your thoughts to attract what you want i.e. be careful what you choose to focus your thoughts on because those are what you will manifest.

As you may notice in my post yesterday, i was talking about how sad i was and i have constantly had the feeling that something bad might be happen to me at work… and silly enough i have been focusing on that.

But today,

I choose differently, i choose to create work even when i am not given, i believe that the divine will somehow find a way of getting my feelings about wanting more responsibility at work out there and it will come to …

I will have to just stay focused, shift my thoughts to that phase of when i have gotten all the responsibility when i am truly happy that i am contributing significantly to my job.

That is going to be my manifestation… i shall not turn this into something sad, i will create and create it until it materialises…

Yipeee…. i am ecstatic! I really am.

I am doing this!

“IF WE ALL DID THE THINGS WE WERE CAPABLE OF, WE WOULD ASTOUND OURSELVES”
Thomas Edison

Ohhhh wow, just saw this quote it gives me goosebumps just reading it… it’s amazingly true, omg! I am definately inspired.

I was listening to Wayne Dyer this morning, somehow i find it amazingly refreshing to listen to him in the mornings when i can… he seems to set things into perspective and boost me more with courage, confidence, love and appreciation for a bright new day!
Ok, so in this particular audiobook he was talking about 8 questions we should ask ourselves…
1. IF YOU DISCOVERED YOU SUDDENLY DISCOVERED YOU HAD 6 MONTHS TO LIVE, WHAT WOULD YOU DO DIFFERENTLY?

2. IF YOU WERE TO PICK FROM SCRATCH REGARDLESS OF YOUR PAST ETC, WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH? I.E. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE WOULD YOU SURROUND YOURSELF WITH?

3. WHERE WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD?

4. HOW MUCH SLEEP DO YOU THINK YOU’D GET IF YOU HAD NO CLOCK?

5. HOW MUCH AND WHEN WOULD YOU EAT IF THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS MEAL TIMES?

6. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS MONEY? WHAT ACTIVITIES WOULD YOU BE INVOLVED IN DAILY?

7. HOW OLD WOULD YOU BE IF YOU DIDN’T KNOW HOW OLD YOU ARE?

8. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF WITHOUT USING ANY LABELS?

I think these are rather brilliant questions that get u questioning alot of things you do daily… it gets you thinking for sure. I will post some of my answers to these questions later.

I’m listening to more Wayne Dyer and i have decided to listen to 5 ways each week and try practise one of them daily:
The idea behind these ways is that in order to change our lives, we must change our thoughts and words! To transform means to change form/ go beyond your current form….
Here goes:

1. Know and believe that divine intelligence exists.. there’s divinity in everything and we have the power to use this to create a life of bliss… if there’s divinity in everything, you too have divinity.

2. The right way to live our lives perfectly in in us. Look inwards rather than outside for answers… donot outsource…insource.

3. Become aware that there are no ‘’accidents'’ in the universe… everything that shows up in our life has something to teach us. We should appreciate everything that comes our way.

4. Draw your inner energy from the beauty that surrounds you…see the fullness of God ins everyone and everything and find bliss in that

5. Be peaceful, experience silence, meditate… be in contact with the higher being/God. You find answers from silence…from peaceful moments. You find peace, solitude in silence and realise that God’s one and only voice is in silence. Go within and find bliss…

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Wow, what wonderful words to marinate on this weekend!

Listening to Dr Wayne Dyer’s “Creating your life with your thoughts” audiobook, i got inspiration to write this post. It might inspire someone who’ll stumble over this blog - just like it did me.

The point that Dr Dyer is trying to get across is just as the title of this post suggests i.e. as you think so shall you be. Right, some of you might wonder how exactly do you mean?? You mean if i think i have a bentley, i shall have one… hehehe, ok well it’s not that shallow…. there’s a whole lot of thinking behind this. He argues that there is this inexplicable power in being able to put our attention/thoughts to what we want and it happens. This can however only be done if we banish our doubts, fear, shift our belief system to that of a knowing.
The idea is that if we focus all day on things in our life that we donot want or that we dislike, those things will continuously happen, because we focus so much on them… he gave an example of how this little girl (neighbour to Dr Dyer) called *Sally, used to always suck her thumb and each time her father saw her, he’d yell at her to take her finger out of her mouth… and for some reason the kid would never manage to stop doing so… the father always focused on her not stopping to do so and so it continued but everytime Sally would go to Dr Dyer’s he’d congratulate her on finally stopping to suck her thumb even though she still was… and just before the father would come back to pick her up she’d be suck-thumb-free… and Dr Dyer would tell Sally’s dad how great she’d been and hadn’t sucked her thumb for over 2 overs… Sally would be all excited about how she’d managed to do so…. when they got home and Sally’s dad would continue to lecture her about stopping to suck her finger, it would happen.
I’m not sure if this is the best example and if its easy to understand, but the idea is that if we focus our thoughts on what we want as opposed to what we donot want, those things somehow happen!
We control our thoughts, we’re the origin of what we choose to think about… we create our reality with our thoughts. What we think about expands…. if we really really really want something, we should think of it, marinate on that thought… maintain that vision… then it happens… but we continuosly think about we cannot have, what we donot want those things stay! Dr Dyer argues its as simple as WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT EXPANDS… if you think you are not in a right relationship, your thoughts focus on all the wrong things and you find urself finding only faults with your partner, you cannot get these wrong doings out of your mind then automatically the relationship sucks, and you donot even realise that you created that reality for yourself… we should focus on what we want to be done.

Always stay with your thoughts in order to bring them into form - Dyer

When we realise the truth in this, we realise that we need to be real careful what we think! i.e. what Dr Dyer calls Manifesting your destiny…
He gives an example of Oprah. He knew her from way back when she was a co-host in Baltimore and pretty much watched her grow into the successful woman she’s become and one day he got invited on her show. So as he’s in the green room, she enters to meet her guests and he tells her “Congratulations on becoming such a successful person as you have become” and she replies “Thank you, I created it” as simple as that… she focused on the thought, didn’t let go of it… didn’t have any doubts or hold backs about it and it happened. Simple as that… marinate on your thoughts and watch your life change hence, as you think, so shall you be!!!
Wow, am inspired!

I am thankful this thursday for:

- Waking up this morning and getting to enjoy today
- All my friends and family being relatively happy and healthy
- Having a job i like and that pays me well
- My brother graduating
- My growing knowledge of myself and of consciousness
- My partner
- Internet connection (lol, but 4 real dawg…lol)
- being healthy
- having no major worries on my mind
- being FREE and able to pretty much do whatever i please
- tommorow being friday!
- having chilled back colleagues
- not letting my boss telling me that i won’t be picked up to work by the company car no more bother me much
- having good TV at home to unwind to when i get home from work
- the 21 day plan am on - 4 down/ 17 more to go… yipee!

That’s it this week on Thankful Thursday!

Be thankful y’all…. it’s FREE and a good way to keep in tune with the free things in life.

Lord, make me a channel of thy peace;
that where there is hatred, I may bring love;
that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness;
that where there is discord, I may bring harmony;
that where there is error, I may bring truth;
that where there is doubt, I may bring faith;
that where there is despair, I may bring hope;
that where there are shadows, I may bring light;
that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted;
to understand, than to be understood;
to love, than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to eternal life.
Amen.

After being very inspired by that piece of writing (see previous post), i am compelled to think about everyone currently in my life, what their reason in being in my life is, those who were but aren’t anymore… so i’ll just write in no particular order…

My mother: her reason for being in my life is to bring out the best in me - now, she’s probably the hardest person to get along with in my family, but that’s because unlike everyone else who give in to all my requests, demands, suggestions, she questions them. She wants things done the way she sees are the right way, and me being the kind of control freak i like to be, i see that immediately as a threat and hence just not getting on well with her - but what i haven’t always realised was that by responding to her the way i do, i am only being very low - i am supposed to learn from her, because all she’s there for is for me to be the best i can be i.e. patient, humble, loving, understanding, respectful. I am learning to take every interaction/challenge from her as a lesson, that will force me to choose a response that is either towards the light or towards fear and hopefully over time, they will all be towards light =)
Am soooo glad and relieved that i am finally able to see our relationship in this way, it all makes so much sense and is the reason she’s how she is and why she’s my mother.

My father, brother & sister: I choose to put them all into the same category because they are somewhat the same - they are very laid back, easy going, very loving, kind, patient, funny and just good people. They are what i want to be. They are there to show me how i should be. They are there to teach me how all these things are achieved. They are where i want to be and maybe even past. They have remained consistently themselves and that’s why i know they are for real =)

My partner: He is my main source of awareness, he is one of the reasons i am on this self discovery journey - the reason i am learning me so immensely. he is a deep thinker, a loving, peaceful, funny, great laugh and soulful person - he is where i want to be and he teaches me each day how to get there. Being soulful isn’t something one’s born with but rather, a journey one must consciously embark on by continuously enlightening one’s self through reading, thinking, listening all this ego-free. He is there to convince me, that i am a good person, that i can be better if i choose to live my life consciously, he is there to teach me love, love, love.

Claude (the cleaner/office clerk@ work): Now, this guy and i have until very recently failed to get on, basically we have totally failed to gitch each other. First i tried to control him and wouldn’t understand how him a cleaner would take 20mins to get me a bottle of water - i didn’t realise it was the attitude i asked him for the water with that leads to such a response, i wouldn’t understand why when i called him eventhough he was only few feet away he wouldn’t respond that it was because of HOW i called him - so i decided to respond by trying as much as possible to avoid him, i’d bring my own water so i don’t ask him, i’d go photocopy my things, just so we donot have any contact - and this only led to hatred and so much anger - i realised only recently that i should treat him the way i’d like to be treated, so i decided to start doing so, i’d speak to him politely with respect and his response was amazing, he did everything well, on time and now we cool… so his role was to teach me that no matter a person’s status, people should all be treated the same, just like i’d to be treated… thanks Claude!

My colleagues: (Yvonne, Michel, Bosco) You all teach me purity, respect, love and understanding. You do things with good intentions and seem to live happily… you are in my life to show me that sometimes i just need to chill, be good, have purely good intentions and things will go right.

My high sch friends (Gp 1): You all came into my life to make me discover a whole other side of me i didn’t know i had, you all brought the madness in me and sometimes i took this to another level which i am not so proud of such as bullying, manipulative, judgemental etc… but i needed this journey, i needed to have you all in my life at that point in my life so i could create a contrast and know what’s right and what’s wrong - you were/are all fun and great people whom i love to bits, you came into my life and taught me lessons i absolutely needed at that point in my life and i thank you for this =)

My high sch friends (Gp 2): Your quietness, your observing nature is pure. Your friendship, your nonjudgmental nature inspires me to this day. You always seemed to be in control of everything, i thought you were like me, but now i see you weren’t… maybe i am now like you/ or so i’d like to think… be the pensive and quiet observer - with no analysis/judgement involved. I have also noticed that i am not the only one joining your group now, but also some friends from gp 1. =)

My uni friend (Sim): You remind me of how i’d like to be when i grow up =) you are such a pure, loving and beautiful woman. You are sooooo intelligent that sometimes i don’t understand how you do it, how you manage to know all the things you do. Your love for people, for the world is such an inspiration and i see why you are in my life - to create the picture of what i should look like when i have re-shaped myself. You are amazing and i love everything about your spirit, all the experience you have had have only made you better and you have remained insanely positive about everything. Your energy and enthusiasm for almost everything is so refreshing and enriching to me - u r an amazing woman. Thank you for coming into my life, the reason you are in it is so clear to me =)

My uni friend (N): You came into my life at the point you did to make me be able to understand human nature to an extent. You came in to show me an alternative way in which people think and live their lives - you came to show me contrast. I am thankful for the lessons you taught me - i learnt a great deal from them =)

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I will stop on those for now, they’re the first ones to pop into my mind, maybe as i go on, i’ll reflect on other people and their reasons for coming into my life, but the post (below) was empowering and inspiring and i am glad it got me thinking (above).

Light & Quietness =)

PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a season, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank everyone for being a part of your life, as I do, whether they were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

**Enjoy this piece… so true…inspiration… lightFUL!

You are amazing. You are the creation of yourself. You are that which creates. You are the choice to experience existence – beingness. The only limit to what you can be is your self-belief and your imagination. To be born into this reality is to enter a wonderful, shared illusion that grants you complete free-will in the creation of your own personal reality; this is your creatorship. Within the illusion we believe that we are looking at a separate, objective world where we experience self and other; beneath this apparent separation we are unified; we are one.

Reality is a mirror of your being. You are creation exploring itself in a space-time mirror. Through what you choose to believe you create your reality. You change your reality by changing your beliefs about both it and yourself. The eyes with which you look actually shape what you see (this is now shown in quantum physics). Perception is not passive; it is an act of creation. Your choice of perception forms not only how you experience yourself, but your entire reality. Awakening to your creatorship leads your experience of reality to become more fluid and direct. This is to enter conscious creatorship where what you desire is quickly manifest.

The key to conscious creatorship is the allowance of change; the birthing of the unknown into the known. The basis of allowance is acceptance. To change your reality you must first accept it. As long as you reject what you do not like about your reality you are in denial of your creatorship, leaving you feeling stuck. To accept that you are choosing your reality, release attachment to any preconception of how life should be and instead love what is. This comes through the taking of complete responsibility for every element of your reality. This is to love your choice. It is to love yourself. You are the choice of yourself.

Release your fear. Fear is fear of the unknown, fear of being limitless. Fear creates limitation. There is a natural, beautiful unfolding to life that can only arise when you let go of the control that arises through fear. To face your fear is to allow yourself to be vulnerable and put down the shields you have used to protect yourself. All shields are a representation of a belief in danger and therefore lead you to the very danger you want them to protect you from. Whilst you are barricaded behind shields (fear) you will never truly feel safe. All that blocks you in life is the manifestation of your fear.

The discovery of freedom is the realization that the only force pushing against you is you.

You hold the key to any cage you may be in. To cease to judge and control your own being is to release struggle and enter joyful, effortless creation.

You are awakening to your creatorship and the nature of the illusion. This is a natural process and requires no more than fearlessly being yourself. This means opening and following your heart. This is your freedom: believe whatever your heart feels to believe. This is to live in the Now. It is to awaken to the equality of all beingness and release judgment of both yourself and the world. Ever changing truth is the reflection of the ever unfolding birth of beingness that is life. In this state there is no such thing as ‘The Truth’. There is no need of an answer for there is no problem. Just be. There are no limits to what you can be; you are infinite. The joy of this life arises through completely allowing your own being.

Within your heart is a dream. The meaning of life is to live that dream. You can only live that dream if you believe you can. Believe in your dream. You are free to be whatever it is you wish to be. You are an embodiment of all creation. The answer to every question you can conceive is within you, for you are both the creator and perceiver of all you experience. Allow your beingness to blossom without limitation or control and you will experience the limitless love and freedom that you are.

Nevermind the random subject, well not quite random since am sipping a strawberry milkshake as my keyboard is being hit… uh huh, it’s monday few minutes till my lunch break. I had a great weekend, not comprising of alot of activities but nevertheless great! I am currently caught between entering only ‘constructive’ posts unto this blog or my everyday random ramblings… i still think that i need these randomblings for memories… small details etc, because sometimes i look back in my archives and am thrilled at the events that were going on in X part of my existence and of course the constructive bit requires no reason, it speaks for itself. Yeah.

So i have meaning to finish up my work plan for the charity am looking to set up - i have alot of it done, just need to seat down probably for a good 2h30mins straight and down it all on word. Thing is that i get home from work mostly at 7pm… then i usually go to bed at 9pm… thing is that i could possibly add an extra hour and be going to bed at 10PM…that way i can finish up project 1 (charity)…! Which is so close to my heart and really requires URGENT action.
on the otherhand, i have been thinking that maybe i should 1st focus on project 2 (pili squared) then i can generate enough money to run project 1… as in probably in the next year or 2. Project react really requires alot of time, devotion and money which at the moment i donot have as much. OK, so am thinking maybe at the mo’ i could probably do most of the paperwork and then when i get the money, time i’ll just go right ahead. Still don’t know… but then again, why don’t i know, i needn’t have doubt, i can be sure about… ok
another try: ok, so i am going to do the planning for project 1, help mum with her’s and then focus on project 2… which requires woiiieee…. some serious focus!

This morning on my way to work, the driver had the BBC on and they said today 17th sept 2007… and the driver goes “gosh, the month is almost over, infact the year”and ofcourse i do realise how fast it’s gone and it’s soooo easy to get caught up in the midst of doing things that u donot realise how fast time has gone… according to John Lennon who said “Life is what happens to you while you’re making other plans” ITS SOOOO DAMN TRUE… it goes and we barely notice how fast time flies… so now am thinking i should prepare a weekly report of myself… LOLL prepare a template that has all the activities i need to do outside work weekly so i can stay on track and maintain some sort of balance and awareness in my life… i don’t know if i’ll be able to continue using it past the 1st and 2nd time i do… but i wanna try! I really need to do this to be aware and sort of keep track of my days/weeks… ya know?? I think it’s do-able… i shall motivate myself and try making it last… it’s all a matter of time to get used to it then it could probably become part of my routine!!

Besides that i have been thinking about RELIGION of late… i realise the need to have faith based beliefs in my life… i have of late been slacking alot and i do realise i’m responsible for this… but man, i am just not sure about certain things… for this subject, i shall stop here for now…. (note to self: write a whole post on my take on religion…!)

Meanwhile, i am rather addicted to facebook nowadays and i spend alot of time on it doing rien! Ofcourse i realise addiction is caused by unconciousness, i could choose to do something else with my time such as work on my projects, blog or ummm, read a book! I will work on this issue…

Lunch is ready i need to go get some beans/veggies or anything else that’s healthy!

I shall stop here, but wow… writing this post has got me thinking quite alot… writing rocks! I love this.

As i turned 22 only less than a week ago, i have decided to change certain things in my life, my thoughts, lifestyle…etc i want to free myself!

The theme for my 22nd year on this earth is liberation! I am freeing myself, breathing freshly and i want to go to beautiful…i want to purity me and then set myself free from all the things/thoughts that i have had that only stop me from being the best i can be and reaching my full potential - i intend to apply this to my love life, work life, friendships, react… i am looking to commit a lot of time to this and ensure that in a year’s time i have reached somewhere with my target of freeing myself… i’ll continue to stay conscious and i hope to do this by re-refering to my blog and reading my thoughts….hopefully i will notice some changes in the thoughts i have over time and what’s going in my life. I intend to maximise time spent doing what i LOVE…as opposed to spending hours watching big brov on telly, maybe grap a book and even if my concentration lets me read a chapter in 2 hours…fair enough, but i’ll gain some knowledge…
I intend to define me, the person i really am and the things i want to get rid of and those i want to adapt… i really want to go to beautiful - which lays in my soul…
I WANT TO “BEGIN TO SEE MYSELF AS A SOUL WITH A BODY RATHER THAN A BODY WITH A SOUL”

It’s friday - i wish you all a great weekend.

Love & humbleness

Thankful to God for waking up this morning, thanking Him for all my friends, family being fine. Thanking him that i have a good job, thanking him that i have A in my life, thanking Him for everything else that’s ok and also for those aren’t that Ok that i can get the wisdom to realise that they are only lessons to learn from.
I am starting my soul discovery path, that has been on hold for a while now - and ofcourse as i result of my unconscious decisions, i have been getting unconscious results… if that makes sense…so i need to get back into serious shape with this!

Love & tranquility

-Extract from the Seat of the Soul-

Our soul is not a passive or a theoretical entity that occupies a space in the vicinity of our chest cavity.
It IS a positive, purposeful force at the core of our being, that part of us that understands the impersonal nature of the energy dynamics in which we are involved, that loves without restriction and accepts without judgment.
If we desire to know our soul, the first step is to recognise that we have one, then allow ourselves to consider,
“If I have a soul, what IS my soul? What does my soul want? What is the relationship between me and my soul? How does the soul affect my life?”
When the energy of the soul is recognised, acknowledged and valued, it begins to infuse the life of the personality.
[do not be quick with your disdain, how do you know if you haven’t tried/experimented]
When the personality comes fully to serve the energy of the soul, that IS authentic empowerment.
This is the goal of the evolutionary process in which we are involved and the reason for our being.. Every experience that we have and will have upon the earth encourages alignment of our personality with our soul.
Every circumstance and situation gives us opportunity to chose this path, to allow our soul to shine through us.The perspective of the soul is immense, and the perceptions of the soul is without the limitations of the personality.
Each physical, emotional and psychological characteristics that comprises a personality and it’s body is perfectly suited to its soul’s purpose.

This is an awesome post i just got from yahoo 360 degrees, sort of summarises my thoughts on ‘the journey’ or alchemy wowww…

Alchemy Defined
Inner adj.

1. Occurring within. 2. Pertaining to the soul or mind.

Alchemy n.

1. The art of transmutation.
2. The seemingly miraculous change of a thing into something better.

The concept that we create our own reality is more widespread than ever before. In our parent’s generation and before, this concept was known only to a few. Those few were mainly mystics and shamans. Now discoveries and experiments in quantum physics prove the truth of this concept. Mystics, shamans and some quantum physicists know that we create our reality by our thoughts, beliefs and perceptions. We are actually more powerful than we can even imagine. For most of us, though, our experience tells us tells us something entirely different. We feel that we are at the mercy of an outward reality, the victims of circumstances beyond our control. We work harder and harder, thinking that if only we have more money, more time, the right pill, the right family, more love, or a better job that we will finally be whole and happy. We try to change and control the circumstances and people around us in order to feel empowered.

Carol understands about trying to change and control things outside of ourselves such as power. When the energy of the soul is recognized, acknowledged, and valued, it begins to infuse the life of the personality. When the personality comes fully to serve the energy of its soul it is authentic empowerment. This is the goal of the evolutionary process in which we are involved and the reason for our being.

Carol chose the name Soul Alchemy because it describes how this process from external power to authentic power happens. The true transmutation that comes from aligning the personality with the energy of our soul can only be done by a journey from unconsciousness to consciousness. This process of miraculous change happens by taking a journey inside.

The spiritual tools, techniques, exercises and disciplines taught in Soul Alchemy are pathways to our inner world. This journey within enables students and clients to become aware of how they see and experience their lives, getting them in touch with their underlying and unconscious beliefs, perceptions and thoughts. Without this awareness we are at the mercy of a reality created by our unconscious beliefs.

Awareness is only the first step in the alchemical process. The Talmud says, “We don’t see things as they are, but as we are.” If we believe ourselves, and therefore our souls, to be unlovable, unworthy, and powerless, then we will experience ourselves to be these things. The Truth is that each soul is a unique expression of the Divine, a spark from the flame that is the Creator. Awareness shows us what our beliefs are and how those beliefs have actually created our reality. By becoming aware, we can then change our beliefs.

Changing what we say we believe is not enough because supporting our old beliefs are habitual thought, perceptual and energetic patterns. These habitual patterns have to be changed also in order for lasting transformation to occur. Working with these habitual patterns requires us to develop and maintain a spiritual practice. The tools, techniques and exercises taught through Soul Alchemy can be used by clients and students to develop their own unique spiritual practice, which can bring every aspect of their lives into alignment with their divine essence. This is authentic empowerment.

Love & Light,

Carol

So i had this very long chat with a close friend about spirituality, philosophy and all that cool stuff and it suddenly dawned on me why things weren’t happening the way i thought/wanted them to…basically i thought based on how much knowledge i gather about all the stuff am currently pursuing in my life the faster i’d get it and ka pow like that i’d evolve almost instantly, but then! there is a way that that was rather naive of me…anyhow from that 3 hr chat i had with him, i sort of gathered that basically how it works is that it takes ALOT of time to get there, actually i don’t know if there’s such a thing as ‘there’ because it is indeed a continuos path…you never stop learning and the more you learn slowly slowly you evolve. . . so ahh, i just need to realise that each experience gives me a chance to respond carefully, consciously and rightly! Also i control my thoughts, i can choose to focus on positive thoughts and let go of distracting and fearful thoughts…i rule me and i have possess sooooo much power in me! Go girlie…

i am basically realising that this journey i yearn to start isn’t an easy one, i keep saying am going to do it, am going to do it, but i just neveer seem to fufil do it…its annoying me, i’d rather spend hours reading blogs of people i knoweth not of…instead of reading positive and constructive, upliftling stash, wasssup with that??!! But then again, i know all the good stuff never come easy, ya know wat i mean? Just like those essays u’re given at the beginning of the semester that are due the last week of the sem, but u end of saying, yeah i’ll get started but you don’t do so until the very last week and ur up ALL nite…the scary thing about this is that that last week might be when am 87years old!!!!! I need to get this done, it neeeeds to be done now!! My weekend started off amazing, the last week went well, i was all bubly and happy for no reason in particular until someone said something that made me feel bad about myself and led to a whole series of questioning me and blah blah blah…then i get to work this morning and my boss is acting way too boosy for my liking and then the silly clerk pisses me off…but ahhhhh…am back to good ol’ bubbly me, just off a dose of ‘wonderful’ and ‘butterfly’ ahhhhmmm, God bless good music!! Can’t get enough of it!…

………ok……..seeeing as i typed the upper bit of this post uhmmm like 2 hrs ago….am sort of back to arrhhhhggghhhh-fuck-everything moood again, which i soooo need to snap out of because i have party to attend this evening and i’d just rather not let this shit drag with me all evening especially when tommorow is a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!! hoooooooray, i finally get to enjoy my first ‘worker’s day’ as a worker….and boy does it feel wow!! Ahmmm…so i need to talk myself into me bubly me…so yeahhhh…….

Ok, so basically i have been living rather unconciously, complaining here and there…shit and shit and shit…yet, i am not doing anything to lift myself outta this shit, if u know me a mean? hmm, so am thinking i need a whole day’s dose of Gary and India… just 1 day of that and then am sure i’ll be 3 steps ahead…so again, here i go with promises to do good, think good etc etc….but man, ahhhh!! Am out…

I have been talking about how i need to start living a conscious life and yes i do it sometimes (very few times) but it doesn’t last… yet it is soooo clear to me how not living life with awareness is affecting my life; at home, at work, in my relationship, friends etc…it’s eating me up slowly, i realise i need to make a very serious decision to start living a more a life that i am aware of, i am aware of how i am feeling, commitment to create authentic power(which simply is aligning my personality with my soul) and also be learning from each experience something about myself especially from my reactions (such as anger, jealousy, resentment, impatience), to notice my thoughts, notice my emotions…in so doing, i will be able to be more careful with the way i respond to everything, by choosing to respond positively not just to avoid a pile up of negative karma but to also feel authentic empowerment (which is a huge strenght that by far outweighs external power), which is something that i cannot loose once i establish…
Basically, the deal is that i am once and for all going to finish the SOTC atleast by the end of the week, i’m setting a goal to read 4 pages each night before i sleep.
I feel like today morning was the biggest wake - up call so far, i am so helpless without knowing anything, without being aware of my feelings, just leaving each day as it comes, without CAREFULLY thinking through each response be it word or actions, being fully aware that every cause gets an equal response/effect i.e. we get from the world what we give to the world… I AM DOING IT!

Just been reading through my previous posts…and the ‘beautiful beautful home’ one really stood out… not just because its not my usual ramblings or brouhaha…it’s just because i actually haven’t been doing anything to get to that beautiful home or place… i have been stood… back to the good old unconcious living…just doing, saying, thinking things unconciously, i dont remember the last time i listened to seat of the soul (which i have found to be my TRUE guide to conciousness and what Gary calls authentic empowerement… i haven’t touched the book either…i have just ignored it, i guess i have done so unconciously too…but from today, i am going to get back into the routine…i need to get this right, i need to get this now… i honestly am fed with this boring unconscious life, been doing it for 21 yrs, lol…so it’s time i tried something new, something real, something authentic… from the experience i’ve had with this new feeling i wanna do this forever…so i need to get working!

I am just sat here, trying to get my head around so many things, i read thru my blog earlier, listened to half of Gary Zukav and i realise i have so much work to do. I have experienced authentic empowerment - for a few days, but now i need to make it last, i need to live that feeling each and every day, i want to do so, because while i felt what it was like to be authentically empowered, i felt the strongest i have ever felt in my entire life…it was magical, it was like i was being re-born, like a new born child seeing the world for the very first time, being able to understand everything, analysing stuff and feeling very comforted because i wasn’t alone although i physically was. It was beautiful, it felt sooo right and so real, so true and so easy. Yet now i realise it is something that i need to work on, it’s not just a physical experience that once u’ve felt u have, it is very pyschological and very mind-based…i need to fix my mind to it and make it last, it needs to be constantly running through my mind… it is something that i need to think and do consciously, i guess that’s the whole truth behind consciousness…being aware…somehow, i need to practise this more often so i can remain authentically empowered and feel true power that isn’t external. I am so curious to see what my life will be like when i have mastered this art, i chose to call it an art because it is something that requires constant practise and possibly with time, you just do it, without even thinking. It just happens, like that. I am going to make it an assignment to read/listen to the seat of the soul every other day. One day to read, next to practise etc…that way i think i will get where my soul trully wants me to be which is to be able to finally align my personality with my soul.

“I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful home”

Happy Sunday… went to church today and here’s what was preached today. (I will be posting the word of God every sunday i go to church…hope you enjoy, i try to write as much as i captured during the service) Here goes…

1. Framed photographs of our loved ones (parents, siblings, friends…)
2. Money
3. Book on councelling
4. Favourite bar of chocolate
5. Bottle of wine
6. Favourite duvet/throw-over
7. Favourite Teddy Bear

What do all these things have in common? Think!!

That’s right they’re all our favourite things & when we have them we feel some sort of comfort, these are called comfort habits. The duvet keeps us warm, cuddling up with your fav teddy, sipping on a glass of wine, a bit of ur favourite choc bar… they all make us feel comfy of sorts, some go shopping to ease their pain. Ok, you’ve had a really hard day maybe angry at your partner, bad day at work, having mood swings…day ends, you come home and what do u do? u turn to ur favourite things for comfort, to make u feel better. right? Ok, but even after 4 glasses of wine, yes you feel tipsy and ‘at ease’ of sorts but the next morning you get up and the problem isn’t gone, your still mad at your partner, your bad boss isn’t gone, that illness is still there…that’s right the problem isn’t gone, the comfort we achieved was only temporary! We can’t carry on drinking wine every night because the problem isn’t going, we can’t carry on spending cash as a comfort habit bse it isn’t chasing the problem away, we go to the cousellor and yes we spill out all our worries and we’re given the greatest words of wisdom and feel comfortable & ready to face the world, but the moment you step out…bump, the problems aren’t gone.
That’s right, so what actually gives us permanent comfort? The answer is God is Comfort. The word of God is comfort. When we have God we are comforted because we have faith and hope, yes we can still have those other comfort habits but we need to consult God 1st bse, all these things can come and go but God will always be there, if we build a strong r/ship with Him then He’ll send us the right friends, the right partners, get us the right jobs and feel comfortable rather than turning to these comforts habits solo. God always remembers His own and has a plan for us all so he is shield in troubled times if we turn to him, we shouldn’t just turn to material things that He can take away anyday… but one thing for sure that will remain forevermore is His never ending love for us and hence source of our Comfort if we call on to Him.
(2 Corithians 1)

Bottomline: Call on Christ and do so with faith BEFORE anything else to get lasting comfort.

God bless you all and enjoy the rest of your sunday!!

DEU 12:18 Instead, you are to eat them in the presence of the LORD your
God at the place the LORD your God will choose–you, your sons and
daughters, your menservants and maidservants, and the Levites from your
towns–and you are to rejoice before the LORD your God in everything you
put your hand to.

Heavenly Father, I am so grateful…i appreciate everything you have made possible for me and all my loved ones! Father, I am nothing without your mercy, sometimes you shower down your blessings when i least deserve or expect it! You are a great God and Father i do thank you very much!!!!!

That’s right, i got my results and i am so grateful to the Lord bse i really looked at those grades and knew it was the Hand of the Lord that worked miracles bse seriously if there was anytime i’d ever felt least prepared for exams it was last semester! For a 70% and 61%….LORD I THANK YOU!! uuhhm, yeah i got a ka 47% in between (more…)