and i shall RISE ABOVE!!
Yes yes yes, i shall RISE! lol i think the moral of this lesson is that i need to trust my gut more often. I do. bse i felt it, i knew it, i could see it, but i questioned myself and thought maybe it was just me. Ahh.
Anyway, so it’s not really as dramatic as i made it sound up there but, i have this colleague who i’ve been working with for the past 3 months or so, she’s here on a fellowship part of her company’s CSR… they send their top staff to train/build capacity of staff in working in NGOs in developing countries, so she came to my project. Anyway, so she’s been working on alot of our communication work which though it’s not directly under my responsibility, its something i think is fun and i’d love to develop more skills in. So my boss asked me to work with him and another guys that’s in the team - so things started off very nice and fun, i loved her brilliance, being an ivy-lea.gue grad, experience, M.BA etc… so i was very keen to learn from her and get as much from her as possible. So we worked well, i introduced her to some friends of mine, few social events here and there, you know because she was new in town and everything thing! Then after like 3 weeks of being cool and chatting about just abt everything, she started acting funny! She started pulling away, becoming cold, so angry and freaking annoying! So i pulled back too and bse am all for ‘meeting in the middle’ she wouldn’t come say hi as much, i felt somethign wrong, anyway, i wasn’t so bothered and ignored everything and kept things professional! That was it for like 2 wks.
Ahhh, why all these details?
Bottom line, i realised she’s just like every single other wh.ite person i’ve met! Predictably racist, you know the kind that thinks they’re cool w/ it and aren’t but deep down actually are! Effin’ hell. Anyway, to hell with all that shit because such kind are so fake, artificial and i’m just glad that i sensed it, my gut feeling told me that! Ugh. But honestly, am disappointed. The thing that confirmed it was a chat i had with another colleague who told me she felt exactly the same way! So i was just like, ah voila, it’s not me, it’s her! She has the problem.
Moral of the story being, i need to listen to my gut, it can’t lead me to wrong. So there you go. My gut shall make me RISE. ABOVE. SAIL THROUGH.
P.S - am supposed to meet her for dinner at the ‘project’ because i’d been promising to take her there since months now, so i thought i’d just get it over with!
