MFN (My Feelings Now)
Just read a previous post where i was simply describing what my inner feelings were and thought if i made it a habit to document my feelings, i might get more clarity, insight and be more in tune and AWARE of my inner mechanics. That way, i’d be able to carefully select the thoughts that enrich and heal me and hit delete on the shady negative and nonconstructive thoughts/feelings.
Ok, so today on MFN
I feel clean, i feel fresh. Its almost 10am and i still feeling rejuvenated from seeing a new day, the little bit of yoga i did, the hot shower i had and the nice cup of lemon and ginger tea i had when i got to the office. Because of a very unhealthy argument/confrontation i had w/ my mum on sunday… i still feel anger towards her, but i know thats my choice to choose how i’ll process the way she dealt w/ things that day. So i need to just release and breath and look beyond it. From the long catching up i did w/ him, i feel so blessed to have him in my life, we talked about that and are truly grateful for having each other, for sharing what we share, for being the best of friends and simply doing things w/ consideration of the others’ feelings. I think what has made loving him so much easier is because i have learnt to always, before i do something, think about 1st, would i do/say it if he was there and 2nd, would i like him doing/acting this way if he were in my shoes? For me, this has worked and made it much much easier for us to get along better and have fewer silly fights.
Asides that, am also thinking about how best to handle this gerl who just keeps repeating the same mistakes and is impatient w/ the way things work around here. I don’t know. I try to think that maybe it’ll go but whenever we meet, its all complaints and i was only able to put up w/ it at first, now its wearing me down and i don’t need that energy anywhere near me. Bse it means i have to empathize and listen and try to understand and shiee like that.
Let me stop here,bse i might loose track of what am doing.
